Not officially announced, but yes, like rest of the taiwan dramas where korean actor / actress is present, our Jungmin too, will not be spared from a voice dub.
Jungmin's character in Fondant Garden, as what we already knew, would be someone from korea and has a rich family background. Additional information I just found out was that Jungmin would be a Korean Chinese, not pure Korean. Which was probably why they eventually decided to dub Jungmin's voice I guess. Despite the poor boy put in lotsa effort into his chinese learning and we all agreed, it was considered spectacularly good for a korean whom studied the language for such short period, it however, did not seemed good enough to pass off as a Korean Chinese. Thus the decision.
Sad. I had a glimpse of the current aired "Skip Beat" played by Super Junior's Siwon and Donghae, heard their "new voices", and I couldn't bear another second. It just sounded so uncannily weird. I bet same goes to Jungmin. Still, I believe the decision was for the better.
And I'm praying very very hard the drama turns out well.
Nights all! (Geez, it's past 3am already. I don't feel sleepy. But well....)
The peers are definitely gonna think "wtf is this? Who are this girls? They even made a video for her?"
Only if they understand the real reason why I was so immensed with twitdom. It's not only about fangirling, but the friends you made throughout.
Even more important, it's the things they do to show that you meant something to them.
Well, what can I say? The mind went blank seeing this. I really wasn't expecting it. Yes yes yes, the tap was on for abit. I was touched. (who won't?) I'm not a person who likes surprises. Because I don't know how to react to it. Or rather, I don't like people seeing me weep.
Therefore I'll try means and ways to not let myself be caught in the act. I usually prempted surprises. Most of the time.
I didn't do alot. Really. All I did was to make things less dreadful for the days when they feel shitty. That's all.
Sure, I could have gone on a hiatus without alarming them, I wanted to go off quietly for I don't want people to think I'm seeking deliberate attention. But I wanna say a proper goodbye. Afterall, it's my friends we are talking about. So I started to log in lesser, reply lesser and hinted abit here and there..
Message from Nisa... Message from Faith... Message from Noy... Message from Zoel... Message from Menu... Message from Hiromi... Message from Nopi... Message from Mai... Message from Danika...
As well as the rest,
Your love seats well in my heart. :)
Seriously, when was this done ah??? How come I have no idea at all?! *ponders*
Thank you dani.. and the rest of you girls.
And Sazeena.. Read your DM. And since it's a DM, I thought it's better not to copy her entire message here.
Thank you for your heartfelt message! The things you said, trending sessions and me calming the situation, I guess that's was the only thing I could do for others. I can't contribute much actually..
No, I do not remember any angry Saz at all.. not even in the DMs. All I saw was a friend whom need a listening ear, someone who trust me, someone who is willing to share her fears with me.
A friend not only share one's joys and strengths. A friend welcomes your woes and weakness too. No? :)
So I bade goodbye to the girls. Those silly girls I doted like my younger sisters. :)
Their goodbyes and well-wishes sent warmth deep beneath.
Feels sorry without answering some of their questions, some, their bewilderness. Cuz if I were to answer each of their reponse, it would take forever and who knows, I might just change my mind and stay in twitter. Ummm.. That is not good.
Cath mentioned something like "so the rumour was true?" - Didn't know it'll turn out to be a rumour. Sounds... major. Lol.
Yes I'm still active in Facebook. Just not twitter. Not till that day comes.
Yes Menu I'm trying very hard to save up for Europe. The post-it promise I made to myself, must be fulfilled. Menu & Mai remains in "the girls I MUST meet" list.
Hiromi dear found a way to text me for free. Kudos. MUST meet her soon too.
Sorry Jane dear, I left without explaining. Sorry. DM me if you need me. :)
And yeah, for the antis, happy that I left? P.S. I didn't leave because of you all lah. Unfortunately.
Right. I actually have antis. Whoa. P.P.S. I have a fanclub. It's call "BBQ". The fan names are "kebabs". I named it myself. I got 4 members to date. Maybe 5. Idk. ROFLOL.
Like I said, I'll be hanging out here more often. To pen down all my thoughts and misses for whoever, whichever.
6 days passed. And I was officially off the "mid twenties" category. Say hello to the LATE 20s yo! Not that it bothers me anyway. I'm still behaving like a juvenile. ^^ (Random: Hey, it's 01/10/10 today. 10 is my lucky number~)
This girlfriend got me this thing that could put up to 6 x 34C bras. Stats disclosed! I'm only a 32B.
That'd mean I could put in 10 bras? 12? Maybe.
Ok, enough of the bras and stuffs. So this was the first birthday I had with the tweepeas. Knowing how horribly sweet they can get at times, I knew I was in for some tear jearking moments. Either they are really good at making people cry or I'm a tap. Or both.
Am grateful with every each and individual birthday wishes. Long or short, close or not, I'm awefully grateful. Least to say, I really tried my best to reply all msges be it in facebook, twitter, and sms. My fingers nearly went ICU from the intensive typings. Oh yeah, I'm boasting. Like it or not. I'm popular and well loved. Equal amount of haters too I guess. Lol.
Amidst the many lovelies, some did extra for me. Which was really heartwarming because I'm sure if they are here, they'll prolly be the ones that will throw be some surprise party. Sweet.
Introducing Menu ah. The nonsensical one. Kekeke. The one whom like "Calvin and Hobbes" too. I knew she's weird. Everyone that like Calvin and Hobbes have this weird sense of humor. One that I like. We never added each other in FB till god knows when. Not that we dislike each other, it turns out we behaved the same - we were too lazy to click on that "add as friend" button.
But the friendship remains. She's the type I can simply not chat with, but reading her tweets itself makes me laugh. She knows that. Menu's like.. a strapless bra. (Omo, why bra again?)
Strapless bra's.. cumbersome. I hate wearing it. You try not to have it on when you have the strapped ones. But you'll need strapless ones when you wear something nice. An off-shoulder, a toga, a tube. Strapless bras enhances your dresses. When you knew it's not there, you'll feel unsafe. Nothing could replace that. The moment you found your strapless bra, you'll go "damn, can I not wear it?" - and the vicious cycle remains. Menu's someone you won't realise her importance until she disappears. Like how Hyun Joong said he wants to be Hwangbo's oxygen. Yes, oxygen. :) But I like describing Menu ah as a bra. Period. xD
Menu she said she is keeping her wishes to me till it's 12am (25th) on her side. There was a time difference of.. 6 hours I think? And so I read. That was the time where Maisimus sent me her little token. Boy that made me weeped! And weeped! Annnnd weeped. Boooo!
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Here's from Menu. Sweet. Wicked too... =.="
(I knew she can never remain too sane)
There you go! It's officially your birthday also in Italy! \o/ SAENGIL CHUKA HAE, CAL EONNI! :-* (I know, it's Mai the one who calls you eonni, not me. But it's a special day. I'll be the troublesome Menu ah again tomorrow. XD)
"I'll be the troublesome Menu ah again tomorrow" - See? Toldja. Hmm.
This is my gift. I know you're superduper busy these days so you can read it whenever... you have time. It's long just like all my blog entries, therefore you're gonna need A LOT of time. XD
Oh, BEFORE YOU CLICK! Love Ya, Cal! ^^
I'm tellin you now because you may not believe it later. XD
No, jk. This entry's not that mean.
HAVE AN AWESOMELY AWESOME DAY...and week, month, year, decade, century, next life. \o/
I'm gonna say the nice things first and the Menuish things later.
So...Cal is precisely the third TripleS i met in my life. There was Tata, then Cath and then Cal.
She's like that childhood friend who's been there beside you through everything and anything. In everything i've done as a TripleS, Cal was there. From buying my 5 Men's 5 Years DVD to anticipating Human Theatre to sharing our love for Hyun Joong in We Got Married and celebrating Kyu's, Jung Min's, Leader's and Baby's birthdays, spazzing before and after SS501's comeback, biting our nails and virtually patting each other's back when their destiny wasn't clear.
Cal: Amma weeping again.
I said this on my birthday, too: i don't rate my TripleS sis. You don't rate family, right? But there's inevitably someone i've shared more things with. And Cal's the one i've shared THE MOST with.
So, Cal...I'm glad we met, i'm glad we are what we are and i hope you'll have a birthday as awesome as mine or more. I'll always pray for life to treat you kind. And if it won't, just call me and i'll kick life's ass.
*Menu ah, do i have to remind you your surname means life, therefore you are life?*
Omo...
*Yeah...*
How am i supposed to deal with myself, then?
*Well, i've been practising to deal with you. I can teach you.*
Oh...HEY!
*What?*
Who are you trying to trick? You're Young Saeng. Eternal Life. You're life, too!
*=.= Great, then if Cal has trouble with life, you and I will have an argument.*
As long as you don't let her kidnap you...
*I always came back in the end, didn't i?*
...Nevermind. Let me say the Menuish things now. Everytime you butt in, things get longer.
This is the real reason why i dedicated a blog entry to you. *runs*
Cal: Shit.
THE DARK SIDE, IT'S IN ALL OF US
CAL: Ok sorry, I officially declare I'm a Kim Hyung Jun bias.
MENU: OMG! CAL! I'M PROUD OF YOU!!! *_* *runs away in tears*
CAL: I knew Menu's gonna say something... =.= *whistles and walks away*
MENU: Sorry, it's just a dream coming true. XDD
CAL: Yea... xD Until JM comes to my country, I guess it's peace for now.
MENU: But even when that day comes i'll have the small comfort that for one second u moved to the dark side of Menuism. XDDD
CAL: *whistles and walks away like Hobbes* Baby lemme love ya love ya love ya
MENU: Well, then *runs after her like Calvin* XDDD Oh, &in case guilt gets overwhelming just ignore it. It'll pass. ^^ Even if you're the eonni here i have more experience than u in this field. \o/ Though i shouldn't boast.
CAL: So.. am I suppose to thank you for the advise? xD *stop pulling my sleeves* Ok ok I get you~ point noted menu ah!
MENU: Totally. It's useful to fight boredom. XDD Why focusing on just one dude if you can have them all? *throws confetti at herself*
CAL: I have no doubts bout that dongsaengie. I guess being fickle smtimes does help, huh?
MENU: Well...you just started. Switching groups is like pro level. You're still a beginner. XDDD Have a little patience.
MICHELLE: LOL!~ then me? I totally switched from Eng grps to Chi grps then now, Korean grps within.. 4yrs?
CAL: Sounds familiar...
MENU: I guess this makes u...uhm...what's between beginners&pro? XD 'Cause i switched from english to korean in 2 months AND ..from koreans to koreans and more koreans in the next 10 months. I think i'm worse. XDD
CAL: I'm so not gonna be a pro.
MENU: Well, then no prize for you. XD I'll still be happy 'cause u moved a first step though. XDD
MICHELLE: Intermediate?
MENU: Ok, cool. Then i'm the pro, you're the intermediate and Cal is the beginner w no ambitions to improve. XDD
CAL: i'll probably get killed by HJB and JM if I were to get any prize frm you pro menu..
MENU: Ani...Baby loves me. Jung Min ah...he may be a problem. So do me a favor&just skip the topic. XDD
CAL: Jungmin or HyungJun bias, I'm proud to be a TripleS. Just. Proud.
MENU: And here's when Cal is back to be the eonni. XD
The night this happened, you sensed i was going to blog our conversation. Well, take it as my birthday gift. \o/
And no, i'm not doing this to get revenge on you for taking Jung Min away from me, sending Saengie using the deflating mission as cover, kidnapping him on a daily basis and so on. XD
I'm just making your birthday unforgettable my own way.
ADMIT IT! You'd miss me if i disappeared for good. \o/
But seriously, I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH that a blog entry would never be enough.
THANKYU for bearing my nonsense for almost one year and for being my friend! My mind won't get better in the future so don't waste your birthday wish on me when you'll blow on the candles. But i still hope you'll want me around anyway. XD
BUON COMPLEANNO!!!!
[And if someone else is reading, don't get mad. I love you all to the max, but i'm sure you'll agree with me: Cal eonni is and will always be Cal eonni. \o/]
And shortly, I received Maisimus's video. Followed by using a packet of tissue. And made her cried too. Lol. Eeish. Girls will be girls. So Menu ah is a strapless bra, then Mai is a... blusher. Makeup without a blusher makes you look pale. Few strokes of pink on the cheeks turns one from crude to cute!
However, over-doing it give you a negative effect. Maisimus's not one that you can be overboard with. She never lets you off. xD But without her, life's plain. When one looks unhealthy, blushers gives you the healthy look! When I'm down, Mai's there to give me a pad on the shoulder, nudging me to move on. Giving me the strength, telling me "everything's gonna be alright."
Blusher can be used in many ways. Giving you the different feelings everytime you experiment. Maisimus likes all sorts of fun. And she reverts the fun you threw her - with more fun. Lol.
So here's her:
5 MINUTES TO 12, IT'S STILL YOUR BDAY!!!!!! XD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY @violettacal, my darlingest, bestest most... glorious(?) Unnie! xD Hahaha, I hope you enjoy my little viddie for you! Aigoo, it's so short, but all I had time for!!!:3
Cal.. oh what to write here? Cal you are wonderful! A wonderful, caring and seriously underrated person! I mean, what have Shisus been thinking? You should be given anything you want, served on a silver platter! xD Be it MinWoo or JungMin or Hyung Jun or Leader or Kyu or -draws breath- or Saengie.. xD Do u get the picture? xD Aigoo, idek how I should express myself when it comes to you! But everything Menu-ah wrote on her blog made me nod and think "She's so right!!!" xD Cal, I can laugh, mess around, cry and love around you, it's like you're the angel from heaven sent to be there exactly when the twitter girls need you to! Sometimes, I wonder if even the SS boys deserve you!D: xD
Haha, anyway, I wish you nothing but happiness, whereever you go, whatever happens! And I hope I can join in to give you some, every once in a while!:3 Kekeke!
I'll stop my ramblings now, and get back to my other -MUST-BE-DONE-BY-TOMORROW- video! xD All u need to know is.. I love ya, sooo friggen much, and don't EVER think I won't care about something that's bothering u, cuz I WILL care and I'll kick whatever it is 501 miles away to the moon! xD
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Here's what I felt after seeing what M&Ms did..
On Saturday 25th September 2010, @violettacal said:
Gees.. the M&Ms;(@Menu_ah @Maisimus) are making me real emo suddenly.
Not that I'm not grateful to the rest of you, but this 2 girls.. are really.. eeish. Idk.. I'm refraining myself from reading every single word they wrote for me cuz I'm not prepared. Not yet. I don't even think I fit their descriptions sometimes, I'm just.. me. Normal. Me.
Emotional or rather.. I'm really thankful. Thankful that I get to meet girls that even bother to write such sweet stuffs for me. Obligated but they still made an effort. Even a simple well wish, touches me deep beneath.
I can never do that. The words remain deep in my heart but I nv did really tell them, or even the rest of the girls - how much I adore them. Truly. At times, I adore them more than my real friends.
I adore them for their nonsense. I adore them for sharing their ups and downs with me. I adore them, simply by calling me "unnie ah~".
Virtual or not, I feel.. it has been my pleasure meeting these girls. Meeting you. And you. And you too...
Love, Cal (unnie)
Now pass me tissue paper already!! My mucus all showing.
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To sum things up, I'm awfully glad I glad to meet the friends around me. My besties, my buddies, my loved ones, the usual tweepeas ^^, the tripleS of course! And you reading this. Even if I don't know you and you happen to read this, I pray that you get to meet nice people like them. XOXO.
So, Project Kisseu round 1 - was half successful. Hyun Joong dominated the throne but 장난스런 키스 was no where to be seen. Chances are twitter does not recognise hangul at all. Oh well, an experience learnt. You never try, you never know.
But that wasn't what the title tells you.
This, is what I'm saying.
The account got suspended. I was trending halfway when I sensed something was wrong. Thinking it should be the normal over capacity or tweet limit that shuts me off for maximum of 2 hours, boy I was wrong.
Twitter suspended my account.
I couldn't even continue trending. I had to find a solution to this. And till this very moment, the solution is nothing but to wait. And wait. AND wait.
Sorry I know I've been whining since the very 1st second I knew my parent account is dead. No matter how much I try to be cool about it, I ain't. Not that I can't tweet anymore, I have a sub account @SS501tags. And most of my lovelies are aware that I'm pretty much using that to tweet. Umm, ok. Not most. If I have a total of 900 followers (round down) with @violettacal and 200 with @ss501tags (round up), it'd mean 70% of my usual tweepbase, might not be aware of what's happening. Anyway, that's not the problem.
I'm just used to the momentum of the parent account. Afterall, I was known as violettacal, not ss501tags, not cal4cnblue and not calovescarrot.
Worse, I promised to do my very 1st live tweet for CNBlue. With the parent account. And then those that are unaware, would log in, and realise "hey how come the last time Cal tweeted was 2 days ago? That's unusual of her." - People whom will be realising that, I hope somehow they are resourceful enough to find out what happen. I can't possibly be whining 3 times a day, 7 days a week.
Moreover, I'm not the only one whom had the account suspended. Major accounts like @ss501facts and @stalking_hj wasn't spared either. Evil me, I was secretly gleeing knowing some share the same fate as me. xD ok, I should say, if it's me alone getting all the demerits, I'd really feel it's unfair.
But the lovelies are very supportive and helpful la.. bitching together with me against twitter, helping me spread the words that I am now in @SS501tags. Then I saw familiar names following the sub account I was elated because hey, at least I knew they saw the notice. Well they might have seen the notice and not follow my sub account. I'm ok with that. So long as you know, I haven't abandon twitdom, that's fine.. ^^
Meanwhile, I hope twitter gain some conscious and return me @violettacal. I love that account. @violettacal had been my nick for 6 years. It's a 2nd name to me for chrissake.
I'm seeing CNBlue tomorrow. I'm half demoralised because of what happened because a huge portion of tweeps are not being able to see what I'm going to share. Or maybe, I'll just dump all the infomation here and do a fan account. No tweeting.. I don't know. We'll see how.
I have originally wanted to wait till the official notice is released then informing you about this. Anyway, since it is already released, let me just informed you. Yes. Persona Thailand's date is postponed again!
I received a short email from Mel yesterday afternoon. She mentioned that Persona Thailand is postponed to 13 February and she will give me more when she is back from the organizer with details. I was shocked when I heard about it! Because, after all, 13 February is Eve of Chinese New Year! It would mean that most Chinese TripleS might not be able to attend Persona Thailand. I was hoping that there might be a change when she come back from the discussion.
Anyway, she told me about this yesterday night, it is CONFIRMED. The date will be postponed to 13 Feb 2009, eve of Chinese new year. She also mentioned this might be the last Persona Concert, i.e. no more Malaysia, Singapore, Philippines Concert as per released in news. Persona Thailand will be followed by the encore concert in Korea which might be on end February. So the concert that Jung Min mentioned during Persona Hong Kong press conference was actually the encore concert. DSP will be releasing an official notice regarding this on Monday.
I know some, especially the chinese might be crying now.... because it is eve of Chinese New Year. Just for the information of other that might not know about this. Eve of Chinese New Year is considered as one BIG day for the chinese, this is a day which the whole family members will return back from their various locations and sit down together to have a reunion dinner. In some families, absence from it is a definite NO NO. I don't know what DSP is thinking? Doing this might also meant that they will loose most attendance from Chinese TripleS. Of all the dates, why choose this date!! They could have changed the date to a little bit earlier, like 1 week before this, at least most will be able to attend. Sigh.... Are they trying to test the 'loyalty' of fans? :(
Well, the only 'good' news is........ if you really really want to cancel the Persona Thailand ticket, it will be refunded in full. However, I guess the major damage would be on the cancellation/amendments of your air ticket and hotel bookings. I feel the pain of most of you.....
According to Mel, SS501 will be arriving in Bangkok on the 11 February and there will be a 'Meet & Greet Session' with fans. Those who purchased the concert ticket might win a chance to meet them. Heard that there might be a premium gift attached with the ticket. The theme for this concert will be Valentine's day.
Well, I guess you better wait for the official released on Monday for more detail and confirmed information, I don't know whether the fickle minded DSP will change again during this 24 hours.
There's gonna be a round of mayhem of pictures, fancam and coverage from the Persona Hong Kong, which should be ended by now already.
Major bloggers literally served us by giving their most up-to-date, almost real-live updated I am amazed..
It breaks my heart aplenty to see them so happy.. when my ticket for Persona Bkk has yet come to a conclusion I'm complaning e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e. :( Sigh. And I ish check my email 10 times, otherwise more, everyday to see if there's replies. Sadly, I get disappointed every time I check. Gah.
Park Jung Min gets selected as the most popular amongst SS501 by fellow juniors Kara. Ahh the double Park relationship is driving me nuts. I am going to anti-KARA soon.. xD *takes flower and starts plucking petals* Should I watch "Intimate note"? Should I not? Should I watch "Intimate note"? Should I not? Should I watch "Intimate note"? Should I not?
TripleS Jap is gearing up themselves on welcoming the boys for the upcoming christmas show held on 19th, one of them is diligently writing her letter(s) to Jung Minnie she cannot tweet. Lol so cute. Another one literally DHL-ed her gifts from Indonesia to this Japanese fan, so that she can along pass the gifts to Jung Minnie too. Lol x 2.
Then this Sporean fan is here exposing their fangirling. Lol at meself.
Tsk tsk, this is the first time I witness crazy fandoming. And I, am soon to be as nuts as they are.
AND! Mitch lugged my 5 men's 5 years collection DVD allll the way from Korea. Charging me extra 2 dollars premium because she went 2 places to hunt for me. ROFL. Still worth paying the extra 2 bucks because it cost twice as cheap compared to shipping from Yesasia.
Jan, who is at Japan now offered to get me the SS501 (pink) blanket if she comes across any. (Sigh, people love me so much you know?) But I turned her down graciously saying the blanket should be more expensive if purchased in Japan.
Partly because a fellow TripleS told me it's small lah.. Muahahaha. So, don't buy don't buy. (what? I'm still rational okay?)
*eyes beamed with killer aura at a particular tweet*
"....gyuri shouted min's name, and min shouted gyuri's name, aargghh WTH!!!!so irritating... "
What da.. Ok I'm off to investigate. *takes samurai sword. Shinnng*
Despite being positive and alright now, the fact was I had a breakdown earlier on.
It was depressing. I spent the day before, mugging till dawn, yet nothing progressive. Made me wonder what was I really doing the whole time.
I spend 7 hours on a chapter, another 7 on another chapter. 14 hours spent and nothing seem to be absorbed? Ancient damnation.
Seldom, or rather, I've never experienced that. Crying while doing the revision, is insane. I never thought this subject was that much of a tough thing for me to handle. I wrote the notes, then realise it's not related, I scrunged the papers, I threw it one side.
And then I begin writing new note. Only to tear more of those paper made out of poor trees. (Yes I'm environmental conscious). It was the first time my study place was full of balls of papers.
The mess I've created made me more raging with frustration. I weeped in silent. (Hates letting my dad worry)
Meanie told me her similar experience too. I guess it's only normal to let the tears flow when you feel helpless...
K lah huh, I cried continuously for 1o minutes, cleaned up and went to get my lunch. I was throwing temper by not eating. Which is totally silly. Why bother to harm my own body when I need the energy to do so? Silly silly silly.
So, the silly got her lunch, along with ice-cream and 2 boxes of sweets. Dinner I requested for durian ice-kachang. Teeheehee. I never really like sweet stuffs. But I suppose it's alright to sin a lil considering I'm feeling so awful today.
You know, my brain still feels empty now. Even thou' I had close to 10 solid, full pages of notes (written all in 5 hours! stress sometimes do help...) scribbled, it feels cruelly empty.
I've never take subs before and never will I allow that to happen! I'll clear this even if the sky falls!! Yaksok!!
YA! The headache is killing me. Still working at the time I type this. Applied half day leave so as to continue mugging at home.
Exam's tomorrow at 9am. It's a Saturday for chrissake and I need to be in the exam hall cracking my brain for business marketing! Gahhhhh!
You know how blur I am these days? Aside from not remembering what day iszit, I keep having the phobia of remembering the wrong dates for exam, or the wrong subject to mug such that I'd go to the torture chamber with the wrong subject prepared. That would be soooo holysmoochingstrawberrybuttercup disastrous.
I was so blur I thought I made a grave mistake today. Let the story begin.
Woke up, got dressed for work. Everyone knows Fridays are for dressdown. So I was in my usual tee and mini (skirt). Shabby to the max.
"Friday.. friday.. ahhh, today I'm on half day leave. Need to come back home to continue my balance unrevised"
Yours truly left the house. Halfway on the train, something stuck me that today, might not be Friday afterall. Perhaps because I saw some other office ladies not dressed down.
(takes handphone out)
Date: 19th Nov 2009, time: 8:26 (totally not depending on my memory to determine what day iszit already. I can't keep track at all if without the help of tangible tools)
"Whad.. the..!!!!! It's Thursday today???"
(stares at mini and flip flops)
"!!!!!!!! Oh shit I'm dressed down! And halfway to work already!! HOW HOW HOW!!!!!! Call to report sick? Urgent leave?? Go back home and change? I'll be horribly late la!!!"
I swear 3,000 ideas flew past my half dead mind. (strange, how come I'm always full of nonsensical ideas despite my brain cannot function properly already? ok genetically inheritance)
So I looked at the date again. This time I saw the time was 8:28pm instead of am. Goodness even the white HTC is dying on me. God knows why it did that. I've been a good master all these while.
Pathetic.
But still.. I felt the most obsecure. So the half dead mind went on thinking again..
Thanks to the colleague who has tap dance lessons on every Tue and Thurs, and I remembering she holding her shoebag and heading to cityhall (that's where her lessons are being conducted), I was ascertained TODAY IS FRIDAY.
See how much troubleI need to go through these days JUST to find out what day iszit? Quoting what my lecturer always say: "Hey guys, c'mon you are not suffering from parkinson diesease right???"
I guess you know my answer.
Not forgetting to shower you all with some gif(t)s
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Major cuteness. Wonder if someone will make gifs out of jjitjoong. :P
The colleague also very sweet albeit she doesn't express it verbally. I guess aside from Jolin Tsai whom I've followed for the past decade and the recent SS501 craze, everyone knows I have the love for gore. (Reads: Gloomy bear, Saw series, Brain splatters, Bloody scenes, la da da)
So, this was her kind attempt to cheer me up. Not bad. Good try. But I guess "Happy Tree Friends" was new to her and that she didn't know I was already numbed to "the animation several years back when MTV was showing it.. (shhhh)
Anyway, just to credit her and share with you all what she sent me on facebook. Enjoy peeps..
Eye candy indeed. Me like the ending - the hollow eyes.
Lunch made me felt better. If you ask me whether there's anything I'm happy off during office hours, I'd say my angelic colleagues. Well not really angelic, but they pretty much are politic-free. Tell me how many companies are politic-free?
Sadly the feeling resumes right after I step into the office.
[In the process of word vomiting]
You know, Imma bit very guilty now. Because of my own emotional turmoil, I kicked up a huge fuss and accused dad of being sacarstic with something he said that turned out to be my own hearing mistake.
(Now if you think I'm harsh and reprimand people for their wrong-doings, I am twice as harsh to myself. So imagine I was lecturing myself the whole night. Hah. Which eventually makes things worst today)
Well of course I apologised to dad there and then with my best possible tone of voice which was obviously, far from ideal in my opinion. It appeared that he was quite hurt by my accusation. Erm, ok accusation sounds quite serious huh? Put it, remark. Yeah, I saw he didn't felt good at my senseless remark.
So, yeah. I don't feel good too.
On a more positive note, I, am more productive and efficient when I'm down because I have no urge to succumb to anything which normally tempts me thus explain my high level of concentration. Since all these happenings are affecting me and my mugging process, I might as well rush my assignments.
Wait, this is very ironical ah? I can focus on assignment but I cannot mug? What kind of logic is that?
Strangely it applies to me..
Hokay, don't want to intoxify you all with my own toxic. I like happy people, I like happy things. Here's some justice done:
Chrissake they should enforce stricter laws for such behaviour. This is so sick.
P.S. No SS501 today (albeit I can write at least another 3 entries of them) because the lovelies are complaining they see too much of it already so I'm doing abit of self-updates instead.
Time pass faster can not?!!! Can't wait to leave office; Need some fresh air. This week quite insane.
Meanie gonna be towkay and treat loo and I for buffet at Trader's hotel. *hugs* It's gonna be a food fest later on!! (Tsk! I keep thinking we are going to Merchant court instead)
Alright, Dear Boys part III officially released as informed by Jeanie and hell I have no idea when will I have the time to drop by any comic shop to geddit... Maybe on Saturday. Was commanded by dad to wake up early so as to drop by HDB to do some administration stuffs for the housing loan. Gah! FML. Well on a second thought, I can drop by the shopping mall to grab the comic. *contented*
Crab feasting on Sunday! Dad says he's bringing the family to punggol? Or AMK? For my celebration. I wonder when can I convince myself to turn vegetarian. Or, at least no other means of meat aside from fish..
Kukubro bought me bag. *loves and hugs and infinite appreciations* But ah kor kor, can stop buying bags liao, wardrobe cannot stuff already!!!! -.-"' Wonders if he too, got my mum bag. (Shoutout to kukubro: I guarantee Mummy will faint if she sees more bag from you lor..)
Like many other's, this childhood friend of mine finally found her happiness and tie the knot.
I remember since we were toddlers, I used to be babysitted by her mum and naturally we'd play together, grow up together and of course, enter the kindergarten together.
We were quite inseparable even with our names. While mine chinese name rhymes with the digit "1" and "0", her's rhymes with "4" and "0". The adults often won a bit of extra allowance from buying lottery from our names.
And it turned out she's getting married this month. My family were all invited to share her joy.
So this interesting conversation with dad came about, which is the main idea of this blog entry.
"Daddy, are you going to be embarrassed?"
"Huh? For what?"
"For me. You know, still unattached. I know mum will be~ she's so full of pride."
"Crazy."
"Like, you know, your friends will all be there. And they will definitely know you have a daughter. Plus, your daughter not exactly unpleasant. Quite pretty actually, and intelligent too (I really did say that. Wahahaha) so how come still unattached, right?"
"Um hmm."
"So will they think something's wrong with your daughter? You know those old people..."
*dry laugh* "I'm unlike your mum. I'm very selfish. I would rather you not marry."
"Heh? Why? Aren't you worry that I have no one to take care of me when you go?"
"Chey, if I'm dying where got time to think so much?"
" (=.="' ) ....."
"But what if they start asking you how come your daughter still "no result"??"
"I'll tell them, those guys, if they are not graduates they better don't even think of coming close to my daughter"
******end of conversation******
Very contradicting I feel. Dad is selfless yet selfish at the same time. Selfless because of his unconditional love for his daughter, so much so that he selfishly denies the fact that his daughter might someday, be another man's wife afterall.
On top of that, I think he is protecting me like any other dad out there.. Either way, I feel dad's selflessness and selfishness are both, for my well being.
The issue of single ain't affecting me. It's the peers sometimes, that gets me a lil' edgy. Especially if they start asking my parents. It is not disgraceful, as much as what my dad feels. I too, agree. Because I'm enjoying my life as much as a life could be being a single. Maybe I'll feel the otherwise when I'm older. Much older. Not now, definitely.
But as far as my mum is concerned, she is like many others, whom traditionally feels that a woman must be married off and be a mum and die being a missus. That is where my pressure starts. Weirdly, this issue only appears to be kicking in now. I'm a 25 afterall. No longer young. Well correction, I think I am young and very much left for me to strive and achieve for. But the fact that many people around my age, gets married it's like the prime time to getting hitched now or else - never. Insane.
And that trend puts me in this difficult position.
Maybe I should migrate to the West.
Worst, people keep asking me if I got a boyfriend already not. For the past 4 year, NO. And for the next few years, maybe even decades, I don't see a YES either. So quit asking me. I'm leading a happy and respected life which I deem fit for. Kapeesh?
Sick mthfkrs. Next time your turn to be abused. Now if you notice, my main source of meat actually comes from fish. Despite I hated fish. Am slowly omitting other meats from my consumption.
Just what is wrong with YOU PEOPLE?! And what's with furs and coats!?!?! Next time use your kins' skin to make yourself a coat. See you dare to wear or not.
Wasn't able to finish watching the clips. I'm seriously thinking, what can we do put a stop to all these
*might be required to sign up with youtube for verfication of age to watch the video*
I cannot quit complaining. Well, exam's over. EI sucks and MR hooookay only. I is pray hard I don't get my first failure. And I'm back to work as promised. Not like I have any other choice but to come back to work. With some bad shoulder ache that is.
TL.
And you know what's the best part? My new semester starts in 2 week's time. That brings us to year 3. Reads: I am so totally going to die
The end of this exam doesn't make me happy at all. I am worried sick.
Sick.
If year 2 is bad, then year 3 is hell. Partly because 70% of our score comes from the 3rd year. Reads: Damn it
Fact is, we hardly get to rest at all! The study schedule is (if not now, then soon) driving me nuts! What, like we are robots?
And then we are left with very minimal, else, no time to do our own things. Either that or we have to cramp alllllll our things and complete them in the pathetic amount of time left.
You hear me? PA-THE-TIC. Pathetic.
Insane. Madness. Crazy. Absurb. Ridiculous!
And the thought of quitting comes to my mind more often then ever.
Quit my studies.
Quit my job.
Quit everything lah! So angry.
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*Edited*
Grrrrreat, we just saw the new time-table.
Double tutorials on Saturday - which means we've got class from 1.30pm all the way to 6pm. With a ½ hour break in between.
Well done. No need to eat. Go queue for toilet, come back, the ½ hour's gone.
To make matters worst, our 3 papers are held IN THE MORNING. 9am! And the school's located at fucking QUEENSWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So what, I have to mug till 2-3am, then zzz for 3 hours and then wake up and make my way to school?!?!
Omg this is so shitty I KEEEEEEEENOT believe it!!!!!!!
